Compadre

by Matthew McNeal

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released June 30, 2015

Recorded at Redwood Studios in Denton, Texas
Produced by Joey McClellan and McKenzie Smith
Engineered by Joey McClellan
Mixed by McKenzie Smith
Mastered by Kim Rosen at Knack Mastering

All songs written by Matthew McNeal
Vocals/Guitar/Bass: Matthew McNeal
Drums/Percussion: Andre Black
Piano/Organ/Rhodes: Jesse Chandler
Pedal Steel: Eric Swanson

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Track Name: Alonely
My heart is a ghost town, It's lonesome and cold
It's been a few years since I packed up and gone
This highway don't give no love of its own
So I spend my time alonely alone

It's way too damn hard to love a music man
But I can't really blame the girls, they've been dealt bad hands
I'm a handful, I'm a drifter, I'm a sinner, I'm a mess
That's why I'm all by my lonesome with a pain in my chest

Alonely alone

Lock myself in my house just so I can breathe
Escape from the world by the skin of my teeth
Broken down, moping around, life ain't easy and it sure ain't free
But Momma raised me well, time to get back on the trail, I'm gonna leave
'Cause I've got a dream

Alonely alone

Now I'm out on the road, just my boys and me
Using money from shows on gasoline
We may be broken down but we ain't moping around,
Life is easy 'cause these gigs ain't free
I've figured it out, alonely alone ain't for me

Alonely no more
Track Name: Imaginary Friend
I am so distant, you are a tyrant
Against myself you've taken me to war
And though I made you, I think I hate you
You don't exist to me anymore

I feel defective 'cause only you can love me
And it's a damn shame I didn't see it before
But I hope you know that nobody sees you
It's just been me and I'm walking out the door

Don't you want to just leave me be
There is no need for make believe
I need you but I don't want to
I need to but I don't want you

Though you were company when I needed you
And I never had to feel alone
You let me down when you became irrelevant
You don't want me to have no friends 'cause you're around

Product of my mind, you're in my head
Now I'm reliving the words you never said
Imaginary company, make-believe friend
You were never real, for you this is the end

Don't you want to just leave me be
There is no need for make believe
I need you but I don't want to
I need to but I don't want you
Track Name: A Losing Hand
I could tell you I miss you, oh but I'd be lying
I could call you darlin', lay you down real slow
Temptress, Jezebel, oh you had me crying
But the lesson's been learned and now my bed is cold

Lips like honey, she's a thoroughbred American
Girl, but now I know
Truth came out like the gospel from a preacher man
I was born to ramble this road alone

Don't blame yourself for loving a music man
We share the blame for letting this start
Romance too sweet for a man like me
Love was in my mind, but it wasn't in my heart

It's a shame, my dear, the way the cards were dealt
Not a diamond on the table to make it alright
Two hearts laid down, two spades to bury them
I'll be playing at a club out of town tonight
Track Name: Wash My Wounds
When I am broken, when I am broken
Will you still wash my wounds?

Ain't it true, oh I'm black and blue, from a life that's left me bruised
The hope I had might as well be dead, it never made it through
All was lost but the thought of you

Oh I'm hurt, drug through the dirt and I try to defy the odds
Try to do what I was called to do, giving all of my to only part of you
And it's so hard, and I ain't always that strong

Oh I am broken, Oh I'm so broken
Will you still wash my wounds?

Don't you wanna leave me alone, 'cause I ain't never home
My heart has turned to stone, don't you see
So how could you love a cowboy like me?

When you are broken, when you are broken
I will still wash your wounds
Track Name: Bigger Things To See
I've felt the hurt and I've withstood the ache
Of past love and mistakes and hearts that I've caused to break
But I fell in love, like I didn't want to do
You broke all the chain of the doubt I'd been holding on to

So let's sell all we own and give away our things
You say you've got all you need when you're sitting next to me
Just hold close to me

Dusting off the words that hold my restless heart down
The past is the past and it all stopped hurting when you came around
But you whisper and say that you've felt it all too
And all the pain has shaped the road that led me to you

So let's sell all we own and give away our things
You say you've got all you need when you're sitting next to me
Pack a bag, we'll toss it in the back when we leave
Tell your folks that we're heading out 'cause we've got bigger things to see
Just hold close to me
Track Name: Lost and Found
These separating lines are fading
And I've come to see the things I've done
Have proved I'm selfish, I may be hopeless
Oh, I'm a lost cause

I must be kin to the desperate feeling I'm caught up in
And I've got an uncanny ability to feel lonesome
Anytime, anyplace, with anyone

But then you call my name aloud
I'm lost and don't want to be found
I don't want to be loved tonight

Oh, I've found love at the bottom of the bottle at a local bar
And I've seen the sadness in the bottom of the glass
But that lonesome heartache is better than a heart break
And this too shall pass

Then the whiskey calls my name aloud
I'm lost and don't want to be found
I don't want to be loved tonight
Track Name: The Wind
What if the wind doesn't take you where you want to go
And the earth continues to turn
While the weight of getting older still falls on your shoulders
And the kindling of your dreams just won't burn

When what you want and what you have don't align
And what you actually need ain't so easy to find
Will you pick yourself up and hop back in your truck
And keep moving forward, leaving it all behind

A little too much of the good stuff and I'm thinkin' 'bout
All the ways that these thoughts can bring me down
What will you do, what will you do when the bad times come around

When you're overwhelmed and feel unimpressive
When you start to buckle at the knees
Will you light yourself a cigarette and try to forget
That you've got these lonesome feelings inside

What if I told you that we're one and the same
That I don't know what to do and I'm not ashamed
That I'm talking to myself and I'm not ashamed

A little too much of the good stuff and I'm thinkin' 'bout
All the ways that these thoughts can bring me down
What will you do, what will you do when the bad times come around

When it's all over, I'll have no more questions
I'll have learned all my lessons
And I'm glad the wind took me where it wanted me to go
Track Name: Mother
I remember your face that day, you were hardened like a stone
I was called into the living and you told me that my father had to go
I remember I couldn't understand what kind of love could end like this
I was jaded from the start, my heart was broke at the tender age of six

When I was scared, frightened by the storm
I would run into your bedroom, looking back that bed was so cold
I know that Papa wasn't there to make a house a home,
And after thirteen troubled years, it was us on our own

But you said "it's not your fault, my darlin"
And you said "it's not your fault, my son
Just know that I will never leave you,
No, I won't do what Papa done"

Here I am at twenty-two and Momma comes to me,
worn and weighted down
She finally found a mountain of a man,
one that'll always stick around
She said "I'm sorry for what we put you through when you were young,
and I'm sorry about the tears
I've loved you for long so long and want this pain to be gone
but I've been holding onto this for too many years"

One day I'll ask my girl for her hand and I pray that she accepts
With tears in her eyes and her heart outside her chest
She'll say "I love you and want to marry you for the rest of my years
I've wanted you for so long, time without you has come and gone
You're all I want, and I'm sorry about the tears"

And I'll say "It's not your fault, my darlin"
And I'll say "It's not your fault, my girl
Just know that I will never leave you
And I will always be the one"
Track Name: Just for Me
She dances while she tells her stories
Her voice is my song
A colored canvas, bright and vibrant
She could illustrate for me all day long

She painted me colors that I could finally see
Such a lovely heart, a work of art made just for me
Just for me

I'd trade my words, the songs I play
To be her brush for a single day
Into her life she pictured me
Side by side, next to her

She painted me colors that I could finally see
Such a lovely heart, a work of art made just for me

Oh, my love
Oh, my love

She painted me colors that I could finally see
Such a lovely heart, a work of art made just for me
Just for me
Track Name: Little Star of Texas
They say she is the sweetest thing south of Tennessee
A southern belle through and through, just as pretty as can be
She must've danced with the devil and he led her straight to me
Now she is my baby and she's the only star I see

She's the little star on the Texas flag and when she ain't around I'm blue
I raise her in the morning proudly, lay her down when the day is through
She's the north, south, east, west part of Texas in a dress
That lone star won't be lonely no more

Troubled as the seven seas, I'm a rowdy hearted soul
My darlin' she looks past it, turns a blind eye to the cold
She's the reason that birds are singing and the leaves sway in the breeze
She makes summer come a'running and winter fall down to it's knees

She's the little star on the Texas flag and when she ain't around I'm blue
I raise her in the morning proudly, lay her down when the day is through
She's the north, south, east, west part of Texas in a dress
That lone star won't be lonely no more

Ask her what she thinks about and she won't say a word,
A woman is a mystery, like a melody unheard
To this day I'm singing, loud and out of key
About the little star of Texas that I've got next to me

She's the little star on the Texas flag and when she ain't around I'm blue
I raise her in the morning proudly, lay her down when the day is through
She's the north, south, east, west part of Texas in a dress
That lone star won't be lonely no more